Finding my purpose.

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There are times when I don’t know how to get where I need to be. Hack, I don’t even know where to begin. I get so discouraged as I know, that am destined for greatness. But when will my greatness come, I am reminded of Jeremiah 29: 11. For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the Lord, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. Very common verse, but my favorite in that verse has always been the ending part …. Bring you an expected end.

God if you intend to bring me an expected end, should I not expect a beginning? Where do I start, how do I start?
My end is expected. I thought to myself, what then is the point in my searching for my purpose. I think my answer lays in the fact that part of my life, seems to not be what I want it to be. Truth be told, I have feelings about my job that just seems to be getting more intense daily. And this has been so for a really long time. I have bills to pay and a family but, should this be taken care of by my blood sweat and tears? God, what is my purpose? Ask me what I love to do, without a doubt, I love to write and encourage other people. How can what I love to be a means of income for my family?

Finding my purpose.
Location: Windhoek, Namibia

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