Would you stay if I asked you to..

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I am bleeding inside.. I yawn for you.. I need you in my life..
Why dont you see that? At the top of my lungs I call out your name, but you dont hear me..
Why is that? Why dont you feel my presence? Is it because you stopped caring? Is it because the person you call friend is all you need? Why? Did you stop loving all together? Or did you simply chose not to hear me??

Would you stay if I asked you to? I need you, why dont you see that? I miss you were my last words to you but, mere words you found them.. Why did you up and leave? Was the love not enough? Was I not enough? Cherish you didn I? What awful, unforgivable thing have I done that you cann't forgive me?

Why did you have to leave me, me.. The one you promised not to ever leave unless I asked you too.. Me that prayed to be a good woman to you. Me that gave you my fruitful years.  Would you stay if I loved you a little bit more? Kissed you a little bit tenderly.. Held onto you like I never wana let go?

Sad, as I bleed all of me out.. Ask you to stay I do that not.. I will move, and move I shall. Until you are nothing more than a figment of my imagination. Until there is nothing but lilies that reminds me, me of something that used to be your name.. You made your choice, and as for me.. I choose what is right and not what seems easy to do. Am not moving, maybe, just maybe you will return.

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