After night, comes day!!

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The day after I had, had a rather sleepless night. Thank the Lord  for my life I should start with that. Well, how hard is it to let anyone live? Not like we have any power over that. I understand now that the death of a loved one marks a new chapter in our life's of what ifs, if only's. I really do I understand now, I swear I really do.

Dont ask me how, but I get it. Emotional roller coaster is what happens when we losse the ones we love, seems to me that whole in ones heart never closes. But, I get it. I really do. There is no limit or boundaries for how much am willing to be there for you..

On a lighter note, I think I want a child. Lol, give me one and I flee, or point me in the direction of a pregnant lady and I shiver. Dont ask why, dont know why. This auntie the other night says "you dont like kids much, but am sure you might have twins".. Weeellll,, on that prediction, I recieve that. I really like kids, I really do. Just not ready for one just yet :-), is that really hard to get.

So, Sylvia is gone back to the US kinder sad that she is. But, ya out of sight out of reach, lol, kidding!! Miss you miss thing, hope all is good.

Anywho, so I got a very strange call from my Ex early morning today. You should have seen my face, the conversation went a little like this;
Me: Hello, did you have a night mare or something?
Ex: No, was playing PDK and I thought of you (he did a little singing, which I could not really make out).
Me: Ok, lol..
Ex: Been thinking about you alot, lately
Me: Ok, why are you calling?
Ex: Am coming home
Me: Home?? What home??
Ex: Back to you
Me: Lol, good luck with that. Really, you just called for that. Good day!

                  Hangs up the phone.

Anywho, went to see my better half after that. Uuuhh.. That hug felt Oh so awsome.. Nothing tastes quite as good as it did. Love him too bits, better yet. I know something.................

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